Scorching the World

So I have been planning for the last year to clean the garage. It has become more and more of a disaster since Tom started working on the rental, and storing building stuff and tools in it. We currently have 2 sinks, 3 cabinets and an air conditioner out there. Every time he finished a day of working out there, he would put all his tools and stuff in a box in the garage. The other problem is that people always donate STUFF to our ward and Tom hangs on to it until someone in our ward is in need. Currently we have a large dining set, a clothes dryer, and bunches of other stuff. Anyway, it was almost impossible to walk out there, and every week when I needed to mow the lawn, I had to do major re-arranging to get the lawn mowers out. I was waiting till after I retired to get to it, then I was waiting for it to get warm enough to be able to stand to be out there, then it got hot all of a sudden, and I had to wait for it to cool off. Finally this week it was just right, so I spent Wednesday...

I came to a realization today. I've always been unhappy with myself in regards to the things that make me unhappy. Let me explain. I love being retired and love being to focus on the many projects that I've saved up, but I find that whenever I spend a whole day all by myself working on things, I end up depressed. I ask myself, am I basically a depressed person? Am I not able to be happy all by myself? Can't I entertain myself? I guess not. I always get sad and depressed and angry when I'm left alone too long. I've always thought there must be something really wrong with my personality if I don't even like being with me. But tonight I realized that I'm just a social person. I like being around other people. I like joking and feeling validated. I like discussing interesting topics. I like being entertained by children. I'm not a big talker in groups and don't want to be the center of attention, but I like being with people. I think that was the main t...